asyraf hanafi

Guitar sound

2012-01-27T06:48:00.000-08:00

this is super nice. i wish i can play like that. still a long way to go. :(

We need Love

2012-01-26T10:30:00.000-08:00

i just finished reading Tuesday with Morrie, what a heart-melting book. I finished it in 3 days, that is fast. i never did that before. usually like 3 page a day. then stop for a month sambung the rest of it then stop and it goes on and on , sometimes i just not finish reading it. typical guy you can say.

this book teaches me how to live my life. it teaches me how to love. how to be true to yourself and others. that was it. nothing more. go read it if you really want to know.

the idea of posting this post tonight is because of this

well, if you observed. there is no title of the song yet the viewers are about 4millions plus.
i mean what drawn people's attention to this video? like 4 millions people. seriously.
then i realized, how did i found this video in the first place.hmm

it's half past 12 and i am alone in my room. i have nobody to talk to or text to so i decided to read the Tuesday with Morrie again. just like read through or something then i feeeeel something and i feel like i want to hear love song ,not getting enough from the LOVE ZONE on LITE.FM , i youtubed "romantic songs" and the video came out.when i listened to the song, it is not that the-most-romantic-song-ever sangat pun kan.

stormed by the 4mils viewers i started thinking and feeling like "Damn, Im not the only lonely person in this world!" i need love or at least this song makes me feel like i'm in love with i don't know,the situation? and so does the other 4 millions viewers. almost the population of Singapore dah.

we all need love. yeah. not exactly from gf/bf but from people around us.classmates,neighbors,distant friends,family and so on. we need love so that we can feel like we are part of this life. nobody wants to be lonely.

just one reminder, if you found the ONE that your caught your heart be strong,hold on to her/him and never let go. i usually sucks in this department but new energy comes and i'm determine and focus to not let this thing happen again if i found the one.

let's stop here.now im clueless, why did i ramble stuff like this? it's all over my head and i didn't get it like more tersusun. what the hell.my blog not yours. it is just a reference for the future me. how was i in 2012 when I am 40 years old.

so long.

random

2012-01-25T21:23:00.000-08:00

going my own way now.

bye bye

i kinda miss you?

2012-01-22T10:22:00.000-08:00

~~stop it acap !~~

It hits me #3

2012-01-18T10:39:00.000-08:00

i want to change. who doesn't ?

I hits me #2

2012-01-15T20:27:00.000-08:00

i realized for all these years how my stupid mouth have been going around inflicting mostly unintended hurts.

My stupid mouth
Has got me in trouble
I said too much again
To a date over dinner yesterday
And I could see
She was offended
She said "well anyway..."
Just dying for a subject change

Oh, another social casualty
Score one more for me
How could I forget?
Mama said "think before speaking"
No filter in my head
Oh, what's a boy to do
I guess he better find one soon

We bit our lips
She looked out the window
Rolling tiny balls of napkin paper
I played a quick game of chess with the salt and pepper shaker
And I could see clearly, An indelible line was drawn
Between what was good, what JUST slipped out and what went wrong

Oh, the way she feels about me has changed
Thanks for playing, try again.
How could I forget?
Mama said "think before speaking"
No filter in my head
Oh, what's a boy to do
I guess he better find one

I'm never speaking up again
It only hurts me
I'd rather be a mystery
Than she desert me

Oh I'm never speaking up again
Starting now... Starting now

One more thing
Why is it my fault?
So maybe I try too hard
But it's all because of this desire
I just wanna be liked
I just wanna be funny
Looks like the jokes on me
So call me captain backfire

I'm never speaking up again
it only hurts me
I'd rather be a mystery
than she desert me

oh i'm never speaking up again
i'm never speaking up again
i'm never speaking up again
Starting now, starting now...

p.s.

wondering if being honest is better than being plastic.

wondering if people interpret it well or just thinking of how hurtful it kinda sound and don't even bother to know the my real intention.

It hits me #1

2012-01-15T05:17:00.000-08:00

Jika belum siap, cintailah dia dalam diam

RT from my junior. this is good.

p/s. duduk satu bilik dengan midin asyik bercakap benda lucah je. ish.

One Day

2012-01-11T08:38:00.000-08:00

just another movie i watched at home. sorry, just another movie? NO! this is big. i mean really big presence in my life. I just can't express it with words. It is so funny how karma really shown his/her face in this movie and it hits me pweetty hard.
i love the scenery. i love how hard she struggle just to earn a living and chasing her dream. unlike me. so full of everything. but materialize nothing.
i pretty sure i'm not the same as the guy Dexter in the movie but i know I can really be like that if i want to. After seeing this movie I don't think i want to be that way. It is pathetic. He missed so many chances with he only one and the last time when it is eventually true and real , God take her away from him and that hits me so hard. Most of the movies got you like have fun now, regret later because if you are fast enough to stop the wedding of your dream girl and marry her instead you are gonna be happy ever after. This movie is not like that. He is living his life full with regrets and well at the end of the story only he is kind of a bit happy i guess. I don't know the word. I am not poetry or debaters.eh.
start from now, no fooling around. no more meaningless flings. in fact i've been out of it for months. *standing ovation*
that is something to be proud of. trust me. i know myself better.

well i guess thats just it. nothing more nothing less.

This is the condition of my room while watching this movie. No wonder lah got sentimental tak tentu pasal.

study week

2011-12-26T06:48:00.000-08:00

this is a tough time i tell you. i cannot stay focus. i don't know why. i always know what i'm doing even though I never seem like one but this time i really not that motivated. i just wanna have fun.

darn it. i have to study la dude. stop pushing me to play dota or something. fuck off. i need my focus back. grr.
i even googled how to keep yourself motivated to study. that sucks isn't it, but hell yeah, it is no easy task.
studying is boring lah nowadays.i guess the subjects aren't that exciting anymore. always pollution this pollution that. what if i don't want to be the conservationist anymore? what if i want to be the big guy who dump toxic in the river? gosh. so damn bored of these pollution.

sorry. i will definitely regret saying this once when i am sane. haha. what i want is what i know. nobody knows it but me.

blah blah blah. a post without real intention. so long.

i really love this song. emotional je kan. poyo punye acap.

Family

2011-12-11T07:46:00.000-08:00

long faces

plan it since last 5 years but only now dapat ambil family photo pagi raya.

muka ayah dan odie yang tak biasa dengan camera.lawak.haha

p/s. i really wait for it. i wait forever.

what just happened

2011-12-10T01:04:00.000-08:00

pergi KBMall

makan doublecheeseburger

sitting alone

she existed

i am invisible

don't know what to do

text the superwoman

superwoman saves me

now i waiting and hoping for the best.

wish me luck.amin.

its complicated or it is simple

2011-12-08T20:04:00.000-08:00

i like you and i love you is two different phrases that bring about two different meaning.

i like you but in a split second something happened i might have not like you anymore. i am sorry but that is me. i can be simply turn on and turn off just like that. *click2 sound*

one of the classic turn off that happened to me several times. i just got to know X and i kinda like her. and she kinda like me too and we get to know each other more and more but X make a very bad move. X try to know me through someone from my past.eg; my exes or frenemy. that is 2nd class details.

just ask me anything.i won't lie in fact i'll tell you little extra about anything. oh and this situation also cause the people that you are asking to be a little comfortable. and i don't like that. i don't like the people around me to feel like that.

i just don't like that.period.

oh for i love you. you know it means more than anything.its been awhile since i'm saying it to someone with all my heart. gahh. jangan nak emo. ciao!

no target

2011-12-07T10:10:00.000-08:00

i hate song which goes around like this " let's party like there's no tomorrow ~ "

i so hate it. i so hate it. see i double so so hate hate it it. oh i put double there so it goes like this sosososo hatehatehatehate itititit*this sounds a little kinky but nvm that*

the song thing, bluergh, i'm so not gonna talk about that.

the thing is i want to say i really really really hate FAKE SMILE. you know when people smile so broad like "I am the happiest person alive! " and thinking people will buy it.

some people who don't give a damn might bought it but not me. i know if it is a real smile or a fake smile. it is so obvious to my eyes just like which one is fake boobs or real boobs.

some say they are tough enough to hide all the pain inside and smile to the world so that the people around him/her will be happy. what the fish mama?

you are tough when you can express your feelings to the world. we have to express what we feel! we have to express what we feel inside!

seriously, being positive is not about smiling all the time. feelings we have each of it carry its own energy and effect in our lives. sadness, anger, happiness, loneliness, frustration, fear, and so on , all of these have to be express ! in what way i don't care. write a song a poet maybe. maybe you are best at writing a poet when your sad and it can be sold or just something to proud or laugh at when you not in a sad state anymore.

so people, just cry when you have to cry. just yell when you feel like that's going to make you feel better. just smile when you see handsome/beautiful person walk pass you, jangan nak bajet jual mahal lah. its a God's beauty kan. appreciate it !

that's all i guess. maaf panjang membebel. bukan ada orang baca pun kan. lol.

ingat nak letak gambar tapi lambat lah upload.so ciao for now.

judge something you do based on your degree of happiness that you feel at the end of the day.

Aizat Ishak

2011-12-06T21:53:00.000-08:00

semalam i text him "Hai torch, sihat tak?" (mengade macam gay sikit)

then he replied "Siape ni?sihat senantiasa aku ni"

I replied "Asyraf Hanafi yang kacak tu lahh"

then he replied "Oh kau GILA ke apa? aku nk pg langkawi ni, baibai"

okay. seriously. my first attempt to text my guy friends failed so bad. sumpah taknak text lelaki dah.

its not that i am different

2011-12-05T20:41:00.000-08:00

i realized that 90% of my closest friends are from Boarding School. starting from Matric days until now. that is not weird right?

i don't know why but i feel like who's coming from a boarding school is much more open-minded. they don't get intimidated by silly small things which is very crucial in my view. This might sounds discriminate or downgrading but i don't think whom weren't from a boarding school is tough enough. yeah, not like they are weak minded forever. they definitely will get tougher but it takes longer time compared to student from boarding school.

okay, lets just forget about that and yeah i miss my school orchestra! like hell. sebab i think without this orchestra I am not as strong as I am today. being an orchestra member is always a challenge. some only tahan for about month then get out and start living a nerd life with books. but only the tough gets going !

its started when a senior asked me to join the orchestra because there is not enough player to play the tambourine, i hesitated but i agreed anyway. i was in form 1 , what else can i do? so i went to practice like every day. 5pm-7pm and 9.30pm to 11.30pm. sacrificing my prep class just for the band. i don't really mind as i don't really study in prep class which is from 8pm-10.30pm. that's for how i get involved lah kan.
then this situation continued until i was in form 5. 5 years in just a blink of an eye. it sounds easy right but i kid you not. living as an orchestra member is a hell. in between the orchestra 101 to graduation day , many horrible situation happened. i got into a fight with a seniors several times because i am soo arrogant. the instructor chose me to lead the drumline over the senior , so theres a spark here and there as i was only form 2. i know what you can do i can do better so i just play along. get zealous or whatever you want. what i know i am better than you. almost the same thing happened when im in form 4 and form 5. yadda2. i got through it with glory and in form 5 i became the President of Seratas Wind Orchestra and brought this orchestra to a new level among the finalist. from zero to hero. from a very small band room to a very spacious band room and now got even spacious! from just an ordinary percussionist to the well known Acap the Drummer.
i am so proud of this orchestra. SERATAS Wind Orchestra @ Royal Rhapsody.

it just sometimes i wonder why i got into UMK where there is no musical society to flourish my talent. i wish i got into UiTM, UKM , UM because they have their own orchestra or marching band. it is so hard to look at my musician friends back in school can still pursue their passion for music.even if i got somewhere near KL it is somewhat easier to find an orchestra to join.
for now i just can wish i graduate with ease and find a job or further study somewhere else where the facilities is perfect.

thats my orchestra back in 2007. we lost but it is a very huge leap forward and the other one was from this year competition. we won the first place! i was there and the moment i listened to them playing i knew they gonna win this. it is so different from my year.they have improve so much! thanks to Ckgu Zul (my idol) , Ckgu Hisyam, Seniors yang datang membantu/sokong,Abg Mus ( instructor)my arrogance is made of these things! i won't change. -asyraf hanafi-

lost

2011-11-14T06:25:00.000-08:00

i am all cranky today. i feel tense. it feels so odd that i don't anybody to talk to me for the reason that i don't know why.i'm not sure what can i do so right after the exam i sleep and sleep until i feel slightly better. now i really need to spend time with HIM.

then i saw this on the internet.

When you have a terrible day

You just want to scream

just turn to Allah

When your feeling so down

you have lost all hope

just turn Allah

when your feeling betrayed

you just want to curse

just turn to Allah

when you can't see a way out

of a terrible situation

just turn to Allah

when your feeling like

you have no self esteem

just turn to Allah

when your feeling all OK and

the world is at your feet

just remember not to forget Allah

you can then be certain he will remember you !

Mid Term examination

2011-11-13T19:38:00.000-08:00

last night i experienced the ups and downs of my life. i just knew that the Mandarin Mid Term examination has been postponed to Wedneday's night. so i spend the night talking to someone until very late at night me even ate burger pukul 3 pagi.

this morning i woke up at 8 just to text someone then i fall back to sleep sebab exam takde malas bangun lah kan. the i woke up again at 10.24 realizing today got class lah kawan. i texted my classmates and here the sucky punch comes in. there are Environmental Risk Assessment Mid Term Exam this evening. gosh. urgghhh. i didn't know that. tu lahh tak prepare kan. now 11.31 my mind is like a steam engine trying to remember every bits of conversation in the class with En Aweng. hazards, table, blah blah blah.

i don't feel like studying. let's just google some stuff and refresh all subject that i learned in class.

shirt design by chesterkeys, which is me ! haha

2011-11-13T00:58:00.000-08:00

i am teman-ing Firdaus Fert study at McD Kota Bharu. We discussed about my lecturer's idea of making shirt about rafflesia Kelantan which didn't get my full support because it is kinda typical and a bit boring.

and it got me thinking why don't i just design something for fun while waiting for Doc Fert .

i googled and i saw these 2 pictures.

blank t-shirt

cotton candy!

I adobephotoshop-ed it a little bit here and there and this is the result. if this one goes on sale, i'll definitely buy one! haha. please don't steal my idea but if you really going to steal it pun i don't mind. i think i can come up with something sooooo much hotter than this. muahaha. thats all. ciao.

now i really know what i want

2011-11-12T04:25:00.000-08:00

hello.

it's 12 November 2011 ,a day after 11.11.11 everyone fussing about but very little significant to me besides few of my friends birthday and my little sister.

lately, something emerges and proving how stupid i can be at so many times without me realizing it.
i need to do something. i am afraid one day in my 30's 40's 50's i will reminisce this moment and beat myself up for not doing what is necessary.

i set aside all my ego for this one. just wish me luck.

our moment might be short but it is something that still deep inside me.

"Believe, when you are most unhappy, that there is something for you to do in the world. So long as you can sweeten another's pain, life is not in vain."

i love this

2011-09-17T11:05:00.001-07:00

SCORPIO MAN
A man with a foggy clouds over him. He is sensitive and easily hurt and always feels lonely. He does not trust anyone but himself. Sounding so negative, but he has an amazingly charisma. He is a compassionate man . He absorbs other people sentimental feeling and pain.
He is a good psychiatrist and he could understand complex and confused feeling. He has a hidden power that he could use it to make things happen and do things well. He does not like people who never try to help themselves before asking other people for favors. He is the type of guy who mostly achieved his goal in life.Once he sets his mind for something, he will put all his energy and efforts in it , whether or not it is a small matter or a big project. One of the most success man in all the Zodiac.
He is a very patient man and can waits for years to reach his goal. He hates thin feeling and weak determinations. He can not retreat or rest for long, for he thinks life has more questions and more answer to be searched.
If he is in love, you will get plenty of love from him, sometimes may be too much than you have asked for. He is serious about love and relationship and will not waste time with someone he does not love whether how pretty she is.
He hardly makes mistake. He could tell if you have any bad thought, and will not hesitate to tell you so. If you do not like straight forward sincere man, then pack your bag now. If you are an over sensitive person, try not to ask for his comments. He will tell you the truth, even you might not be able to take it. Example , if you ask him if you are fat (and you are fat), he will say “yes, as big as a balloon”. He makes such comments because he cares for you, so do something about your weight and do not get up set with him.
If he says “you look pretty today”, you can be proud because he will not say such think just to please you if he does not really mean it. There will be both kind of people, those who like him and those who hate him. If you are in love this guy, be strong and belief in your decision, do not be vulnerable. He remembers all his anger and will wait for his pay back time.
He is very serious about your promise, do not promise something you could not keep. He loves his friends and will do anything for his close friends. He likes you to take care of him, but not in front of his friend. He is a complex man and you will never understand what he means if you do not really know him. He is happy to know he is a complex figure. When he is thinking or when he needs his privacy, you should give him some space.
He memorize everything well. You may say something that you already forgotten, but he will remember every words. He wants to be respected and admired and at the same time he does not like people to have power over him.
When he falls in love, he really falls deep. A man in this Zodiac once in love, he will be sweeter than sugar. He does not like a plain and simple woman. A complex woman’s mind is his venture. Always be interesting and able to talk to him about every things in any subjects. He does not like a woman who sits around waiting for his call.

life is different

2011-09-13T23:02:00.000-07:00

life is different now. its like having two homes. one in Pengkalan Chepa, which are the gym and studios and the other one is the hostel in Kota Bharu. i'm not sure if i really need my own transport here. i can adjust myself really well even when taking buses but at the end of the day i will feel overly exhausted and wanting a bike or a car.

and yes, that is the other problem.if i want to bring my own transport here, which one? i have a car and the father have asked me if i need a motorcycle. i would choose motorcycle. but my bestfriend here will bring his motor and i can just tumpang him lah kan. and if i bring a car my weird car. the gas might cost me huge and if it breaks down. another big problem. but it is easier to go anywhere. the rainy season is just around the corner if im not mistaken. if i bring a car, i will only use it on emergency cases i guess. rain or i need to travel far and blah3.

and the other thing. having a girlfriend is hard. when things get tough and she's going through tough times too.

wish me luck but i know, i can get through anything. it just a matter of time for me to totally adapt to this lifestyle.ciao.

dedamn universitas.

2011-08-14T23:50:00.000-07:00

the fact that i am going to go back to the past is sucks man. no seriously it sucks. and it is not a love story i tell you. this is in fact the world that i have left and im going to experience it again.

a room will filled by 20 unknown students from all courses. like seriously man?! with all the stolen laptops cases, the pinjam barang tak bagi balik and stuff. this is not going to be healthy i tell you. there is only half a locker for each person and 1 fan for the whole room. its going to be intoxicated with CO2 man. fuck.

i rather stay in a small room all alone and far from the campus rather that this shit.

this situation is inevitable, so i need a

small laptop, Macbook Air is so much more preferable.
a car.whenever i want to study i can just drive myself to the nearest McD or kopitiam.

the more i think of it the more mindfucked i'll be.

My Lov.e Life.

2011-08-13T14:19:00.000-07:00

this song makes me drowning baby i tell you, i am weird. i love the chase, the honeymoon then it is over. just like that. but that doesn't stop me from reminiscing. every places which have a story to tell are still fresh and alluring. always make me feel like i wanna go back to that time. i can say i am not a very good at moving on or should i say, i am never good at lying to myself that i moved on.
the true definition of moving on to me is undefined. even with im with someone else, theres always a thing about the past that always come to mind. and forgetting the current event i am thinking of going back to that past.

surely a fail is the answer. in fact i never try. in my opinion it is always nicer to keep it as a sweet memories,right? if i go back to that time it might get worse. so i hold it in and it becomes a part of me.
the current version of me , is the compilation of sweet memories.

i just can't help it when the past event is conflicting with the moment event,eg. i got so not in the mood when me and x was travelling on a boat because my first date with e was just like that. i feel like that should be e sitting next to me not x. complicated much. i just can't help it, the day was off in that instant.

all my past r/s were sweet and addicting. but when it comes to part when i have to commit i ran away. that sucks. i know. i am not that matured yet. i can resemble my love life like Nate in GG. as been said by Mimie Mafti, "you are like Nate, all sweets and romantic for 2 months, then you run" . i have to admit it is true. long distance sucks and whatsoever. that is just bullshit. when it becomes too close, i rebuild my wall and hide back behind that wall.

what could have been if i go all the way?

don't get into me.
don't get into me.
i am not perfect.

what should i do? you tell me.

relationship

2011-08-10T03:01:00.000-07:00

i always stuck at "THE CHASE"

motivated me

2011-08-05T10:51:00.000-07:00

i live with my grandparents since i was a year old. i always get to hang around old peoples. sometimes i can blend in sometimes i don't,. thats normal.

just recently, during my uncle's wedding. i just realized that most of my uncles and grandparents are successful person. eventhough im not really a big fan of his career but yes Ahmad Idham can be rated as super successful lah kan.most of them lives in KL and when theres a function here in Taiping which is their hometown , they gather and from there i feel the rush in my blood that sounds like "thats what you should be in the future".

most of them neither overseas studies nor 4flats yet are successful. i am sure they all have the attitudes of a successful kind and i have it somewhere in me.i just know i have it.

family gathering like this makes me feel so small at the same time powerful. i don't know why, im feeling uber motivated.

"A creative man is motivated by a desire to achieve,not by beating others"

-Ayn Rand-

if you hate me,keep hating me.if you are neutral,wish me luck.if you like me,please help me achieve my dream

asyraf hanafi, i want it to be CAPITALIZED;BOLD every time it appears.

what to do,i was born in 1990 and i live in present

2011-07-30T22:38:00.000-07:00

it is scary if you know how the society works nowadays.there are so many corruption.i lost count.drugs are like candy.gangterisme already made a huge mark on primary school students.

this is so bad. it is like beautiful nightmare. you think you feel like you are living in a peaceful country. but the truth is you are not. you have been deceived like every seconds of your peaceful breath.

this got me thinking. do i have to be like them? it is hard to resist but i'm going to try my best not to get too involve in this all sorts of problems. some said, you wanna be successful you have to adapt to this kind of lifestyle. well, some said, you have to believe in His rezeki given to you.

how i wish i live in 1970-1980, now i will be like super relax,many children many grandchildren.just stay home with my lovely wife sipping homegrown coffee.

sekinni

2011-07-25T22:38:00.000-07:00

i feel so so so upset when this kind of question come to me.

"asyraf,why so SKINNY one?"

i don't know exactly how to answer this question.

beside me there are my parents and brothers. they are all skinny.well you can assume its because of the genetic.

so i just smiled and "biase lah auntie on diet".

i lied. i eat a lot.a lot that sometimes the fridge gone.the fridge tu pun i makan.

argh. i need to do something. in fact i am doing something but i don't know its a slow process or what but im working real hard on it. damn. i should have take the protein make me looks like the guy with all the big big geli muscle one.

i might be skinny but i tell you,i am ripped,i am strong.try me.

and yeah.skinny guy also can be exceptionally hot.

whatever it takes. i have to figure this out asap.

p/s. i am happy :)

weekend

2011-07-18T18:24:00.000-07:00

its a perfect weekend, what more can i say.thank you for everything. :)

aigooo

2011-07-13T20:18:00.000-07:00

last night, after i came back from football , ibu membebel sebab i bawak masuk kucing dalam rumah and sleep with them.they pooped in 2 different places. which pissed my mom off. she said, "Kucing-kucing tu kan dah biase duduk dekat luar tu,bawak masuk kenape" nada semi high jerit marah sound semua lah.

I didn't say a word.straight up to my room slamming down the door like a total pussy.I sit there are so many things in my mind to go against what the mother's statement. but i held it in.even in here. it is not always good to follow your heart right. i am torn but its all for the good reason.
I am hungry so i came down to eat laju2 tak nak my mom nampak.the last slurp of the laksa she came out from her room and saw me. not a single word is spoken i ran back inside my room.i felt uneasy.so i came down and greet my dad who just came back from working.he said "asyraf, jangan lah bawa masuk kucing" with a very low tone. it even feels like are you reading a script mom has written for you?
After hearing that,i feel slightly at ease. he is in fact an animals lover too. everyday,he comes back from work he will go straight to the kitchen to meet the cats. cats first, not family first.

but still, i am upset.so i asked 10 bucks from ibu.(marah-marah mintak duit jugak)though i still have around 50bucks, i just feel like she needs to compensate for getting me upset.went to the cinema for new HP part 2 movie.i went alone. i picked a seat that won't be anyone sitting next to me.

i thought i'd be happy after that,but no, a solid no. there is no more Harry Potter movie or books after this. that is sad. EW. i want you boleh? u are perfect,cantik somehow intelligent lagi.that inspire me to study hard and excel. then only i have the chance to pick you up. haha. mimpi.

this morning,i wake up and i feel lonely. alah banyaknye issue. the last 4 days was waking up with the cats.today tak.i feel lonely. sigh.

maybe. it is the post effect after watching kdrama.i've been watching this drama Accidental Couple lately and i feel like i need someone everytime. but no.i can't do that. so theres the cats to fill that space.

sigh. i can be a fool as long i get that kind of gf. haha.

so long. i wish for a perfect weekend.

home alone

2011-07-12T22:49:00.000-07:00

every morning. 7 to 3. i am home alone. and look how its gotten into me. :D

Penguin Popper

2011-07-10T17:19:00.000-07:00

last night i watched this movie with my friend. a guy, not so gay. f.

i've been reading all the critics and rate given to this movie. it is all around 3 stars.or 6 out of 10.i am obviously disappointed.well it might me a cliche or something when Tippytoe was neglected by Bald Eagle when he was young so he ended up being a workaholic with no hearts.

the arrival of the penguins open up his heart to become a more warmhearted person and stuff. it sounds cliche but i love it.there is a moment that will tickle your soft part and makes u wanna cry. yeah, i know , it happened to me. T.T

this is the kind of movies thats always be my baby.

this is a movie to watch with a family or loved ones. if you want action don't watch this movie.

i really jealous that he could live with penguins , i don't care if it is real or computerized stuff.the idea of living with animals really inspire me. so last night i went to Tesco right after the movie and got me this. taraaararaa~

my room smells really nice.scent of pine.i feel like i was at the top of the tree like one time when Edward dated Bella. in my case, its with the cats.

Jen Di. the only one who use the cushion, the other two Jee Hu and Ge Bu fool around till late hours. and what so adorable with these cats of mine kan. when i switched off the romantic dim light and all dark kan. i checked on them semua dah terbaring dah tidooo.awwwwwww...
the smell of pine,slow music from lite.fm,the kittens.
perfect romantic night.ahaha

its surprising. they behave and use the litter box.its the first time i brought them in and sleep with me. lame kan? marah ibu. die tak bagi derang masuk. -.-

this is the result the next morning. oh i am so proud.my babies are clever macam tuan die. yeay.

i'll definitely bring them sleep with me again. :)

p/s. penguin, that reminds me of you again. so sad.

one tough task

2011-07-09T20:38:00.000-07:00

.go against sweet drinks.

it is harder than i expected.

shit.

dapat offer yeay.

2011-07-08T08:36:00.000-07:00

i got an offer to design a shirt. for someone's college. she probably read my later post here.

im flattered.im happy to know that someone believe in me.

but i have a tad not confident in myself in completing that task.i never done it before.i am afraid that i can't live up to the expectation.im afraid people don't like it. thats all the emotional reason.

here comes the stone cold reason. my laptop broken down like 3 weeks ago.i don't have a real laptop. that sucks. cannot watch movie dengan aman and gaming. i can't design too. that sucks man. i should have jage u elok-elok kan dulu.

life is full with regrets but you move on.

oh baru teringat. let say, i think women suke beli banyak barang yang same yang they all dah ade is bullshit. what d'you say? 1346124876 handbags in a year? to match the colour of 981724691 baju kurung?

in my view.my way, it will be one or two for each occasion. shoes- satu for formal,satu for sport,satu for informal,satu for masuk hutan, and thats it lah. kalau dah rosak baru beli baru. for shirt pun same. for now i still takde suit. thats important. if ade dinner and interview thats gonna score me some point lah kan.

30235 goals. -.-

cun giler.dah 15 gol dah dengan kasut ni.ngeh ngeh.

p/s.i feel like i have to be super rich to marry A WOMAN.

nod nod

2011-07-07T02:44:00.000-07:00

so true

sweet drinks

2011-07-05T18:16:00.000-07:00

i realized something lately, i am addicted to sweet drinks, especially carbonated drink yang awesome "Vanilla Coke". daymmn.
it is unhealthy i know.but i just can't resist.it makes me feel good after drinking it.the effect of caffeine and carbon dioxide.

ah heaven on earth. but now i kinda figured how does it makes me feel good.

last month i watch a discovery channel about how our body response when we are injured,eg. broken leg. the brain will secrete a hormone called endorphin which has the same effect like morphine , dadah tu lah. we feel no pain more fun.

in this case, CO2 is the culprit.thats what makes the Vanilla Coke tu frizzy je.waktu minum dekat throat tu macam sakit je but in a good way. when CO2 come in contact with our tongue it reacts and form carbonic acid, just like i said it hurts but in a "urgh bestnyeee" way.haha.and this trigger the brain to release the hormone endorphin and in turn makes us feel gooooood for a while. but thats more than enough.haha

and now i've decided untuk bercerai dengan vanilla coke walaupun i sayang u but its for the best.buat ape stay kalau u know one day it will kill me.plus my family ade diabetes history,my mom. trust me you takkan nak dapat diabetes.

so now tengah flirt-flirt dengan plain water, taktau lah dapat ke tak.wish me luck.

exercise pun same effect tapi orang still pemalas nak exercise.not me lah. :D

post paling berfaedah dan merapu bile ending.

p/s.i have to gain weight! so bad!

We are the Champion.

2011-07-05T06:08:00.000-07:00

just came back from Putrajaya and Seremban.it was hilarious.

experiencing new experience.meeting someone new.catching up with old friends.celebrating the glory.went against the odd.watching all the hidung tinggi one fall down one by one.walking up and down the hills.getting sunburned.

part I - becoming a caddy to my friend on a very hot day. first time.
part II - watching my other half winning the competition. first time.

there are photos but not mine so tak rase nak upload any picture this time. the handphone only got one recent picture of me topless and vain. so tak payah lah.

but yeah a vid clip the very least.

i never do anything with no reason. i am sweeeet. i got that a lot lately. melayang-layang lah all the time.hahaha

p/s - no wonder i am interested, because u look exactly like her. :(

walkaly bidily dang

2011-06-25T14:56:00.000-07:00

location : Home,Taiping

just arrived. i feel blessed i can be home once again. after 6 days in Southern Thailand. living mostly in the bus and on the street.it was a real deal,awesome! but going back to UMK is not a goood ending. seriously. i feel like i'm living in a dumpster. i don't feel clean. it is unhygienic. i have a sensitive skin, yesterday when i was in UMK my skin start to feeel tad different. wtf. thats why i'm going back as soon as i can. skin problems, eg; eczema can be very annoying and disturbing.

another plan in 6 days then im free and really need to find a money to buy a new handphone.i lost my phone in Phuket. gaah. nvm. everything happens for a reason. happy sangat kot. idk.

p.s. i want to travel MORE.

KMPP

2011-06-13T22:56:00.000-07:00

balik KMPP semalam. everyone told me that i changed! more matured and muscular.haha. thank you ;)

it was nice walking down the memory lane. some changes some not despite all thats what me a me today. matric's life is the best.

im still this retarded bastard.

the staffs and abg kafe semua still remember me because i was the one who always go everywhere with 3 ladies, my bestfriends@classmates.

i don't want to share about how the lecturers have been doing and stuff because i think its always better if you go and catch up yourself rather than listening to people's experience.

i miss the basketball court. thats where i spent most of my time.waking up early and im up there practicing alone. walking my rabbits. sigh. good old times.

p/s. be strong Mr Sangkar

you know why?

2011-06-12T15:48:00.000-07:00

lame hell tak update this pathetic blog kan.

the only reason was i suck. oh i told you that. HAHA

the story behind that,

i was kinda putting up a lot in this create new post page lah kan. about this about that video this video that. and suddenly i ter-close the tab. i checked the edit post page there was no draft of the previous post i'm about to post. that sucks man. you don't know how suck i felt that time, up until now i still feel the succcckiness. what the hell is that? i don't understand it too man. just deal with it.

and so i ended up posted " i suck " which is terribly true.

oh yeah.my lovely laptop crashed. no laptop for me for porn,drama series and all.so ps3 all the way man.it sucks too. i don't know what to do at home lately.

and that leads to me learning how to swim from my friend Chua Sun Chin .He is a former state swimmer. holiao wa cakap lu and proper swimming ain't easy.sometimes i feel like a shark like a mermaid but all the time i feel like a dog or frog. thats not good. but i'm just going to get better.

well, you know when one door closed there will be another door open for you? thats how i perceive my crashed and old laptop. i am thinking of getting a new laptop. Macbook Air 11" . its too expensive man but seriously i want nobody nobody but you. pap pap pap. so i was planning on doing a business but i know it'll never materialized as i reason out too many reason why i cannot do it. thats a bad thing to do. but im being realistic too. i want a rm4000 in a month. jual food dekat bazar ramadhan won't get me that much. plus the rent for the space is almost rm1k. and most probably i wont do it alone. divided by 2 lagi. so nope. i don't think so.any kind of other businesses i haven't think of it just yet. i was just thinking after 3rd july i find a job and earn a little money show a little effort, sembang-sembang my dad. dapat kan macbook. seriously this is the lassst on the list. i just want to have it, i don't wanna go to class empty handed like last last semesters. i don't do writing. i doodling ade lah nanti. so i need this awesome thin thing.

p/s. my crashed laptop was 3 years old plus plus. tua dah. taknak repair dah. teehee.

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2011-05-26T02:54:00.000-07:00

i suck

all romantic

2011-05-15T23:50:00.000-07:00

tak kisah lah korang tau ke how im going to propose to my gf ke nanti.

this is the song i will sing in front of her. :)

its not that i nak kahwin dah.lambat lagi.fantasy baby fantasy.haha

John Mayer

2011-05-13T09:38:00.000-07:00

it is wonderful, isn't it?

this is the kind of song that i love.totally ear candy.when i play the drum i really can hear every instruments are playing their part.how wonderful.

sorry metal,punk rock. you never be my number one. kadang-kadang tu boleh lah. ;P

p/s. the drum is wonderful too!

2 great songs.

2011-05-04T09:05:00.000-07:00

i just discovered 2 great songs tonight. so i wanna share it with you peoplee! yay!

When Your Gone by The Cranberries .thanks to Zahra

p/s. im so gonna learn these songs!

Mr Earth is ******** sick!

2011-05-03T22:49:00.000-07:00

remember the later post about me being scolded, here

these are the results. anything happen for a reason i can say. if i didn't get criticize and all there is no way in a million years i would start learning Adobe Photoshop. i never really have so much interest in editing. all i know is condemning, well someone got to say the ugly truth jgk kan?

the hard works pay off. i spend 24 hours learning the basic of Adobe Photoshop. and a lot of times find how to pull this off. there is so many ideas and i couldn't choose the best one. it takes me a lot of time to decide. thats basically my weakness. i have a branched focus point or easily distracted by new things.

im proud of it even though i know it is not consistent.the background different-different apehal entah. but its okay lah. oh and i feel like stupid mimicking kid's talking. ye lah sebab nak masukkan feel bagi budak-budak faham kan? lawak.

i am terrible

2011-05-02T23:01:00.000-07:00

when i am cranky. i become one of the most heartless person on Earth. cruel.

i have no desire to cheer anything up like always. emotionless.

it started with this one night, around 9 pm. i pegi lah Taiping Sentral yang famous tu nak beli games, and yeah it is Saturday's night,the next day cuti Hari Pekerja pulak kan. i left my ps3 to the adik kot.macam baru habis spm

and i said "pukul 10 saye datang ambil"

and she terkebil-kebil jawap "abang, tak sempat bang.satu game setengah jam.abg nak 3 game kan?"

me " oh okay sekarang pukul 9, nanti 10.30 saye datang"

beliau "er. abang takut tak sempat bang.ramai orang ni"

me "buat je lah.copy je pun kan?" terus chow.

went down to McD just to watch Man Utd play like Wolves. bengang tak? bodoh.

around 10.10 pm tu she called "abg,tak sempat siap lah abg.pagi esok lah datang boleh?"

i didn't say a single word terus hang up and chow balik rumah. balik rumah. Manchester United kalah dengan Arsenal. come on lah Arsenal je? pijak2 je tu. sigh.

i went to sleep.

i woke up around 11am and feel terrible. how could i treat people like what i did last night?

so terrible.so i went there and pickup my ps3 with a very bright expression lah konon macam i used to be like that lah malam tu kan. haha.

i don't know.it just so hard to say i am sorry. so i show it through my body language. enough lah tu. ego besar lori ni.

well now i realized, i might have done it to other people too before kan? either i realized it or not so i wanna say

i am sorry

to anyone yang pernah terkene splash of moodiness tu ke kan. :P

Best of Me

2011-05-01T11:38:00.001-07:00

classic.

first may blooper

2011-05-01T02:35:00.000-07:00

something happened just now. my soya bean tumpah dalam fridge tu and my parents wasn't home yet up until now. kalau diorang tahu lah kan. memang kena sidekick lah.

so, cepat-cepat bawak keluar the tray from the fridge which the soya bean had been bertakung since last night kot. luckily it didn't smell. and while punggah all the stuff this one bekas biskut raya yang entah raya bila punya jatuh. SHIT! terus keluar dari mulut si baik ni kan. berterabur lah bagai. ini yang i tak suke perempuan ni. ade makcik datang office sekolah tu jual biskut ha bergallon order macam nak makan padahal nanti 5 tahun duduk dlm fridge tu.

after i washed the soya bean tu.i vacuum je the biscuits. hilang bukti. then i throw away all the biskut raya warna hijau nampak tak sedap tu.

phew. you know the thrill kan if you spill something waktu kecik-kecik dulu and you don't want your parents to know about it but eventually they will know sebab yes, kite takde experience. kite taktau macam mane nak gune vacuum dulu ye tak?haha. the feeling is coming back. i feel like a child just the fact that i won't cry when get scolded anymore lah. ngee.

p/s.you know what is the heaven in the kitchen? fridge full with foods! well it kinda contradict with my view up there. oh i get the point why my mom buy so much and store it for 5 years now.

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2011-04-30T07:47:00.000-07:00

29th April ; still Taiping

2011-04-29T04:53:00.000-07:00

shit happened.

i drive over satu batu besar dekat Padang Esplanade,Taiping tadi (serious tak nampak, adik dah sound clear dah) jalan je lah kan.

theres a leakage , as far as i knew related to the brake system. ABS in detail. sebab lampu ABS keluar dekat dashboard.

it feels weird after that. the brake takes longer to give effect and back home kena marah one time dengan ayah.we checked (oh he checked,i "concern" je dekat tepi tu) the brake liquid or whatsoever it is called emptied. means there is a leakage somewhere lah. we check underneath. yes, theres a leakage and the rear tire was punctured by the accident.

baru je tampal tayar depan pancit semalam.today pancit lagi.

im not sure if it can be repaired soon.the spare parts,technology bukan senang kereta pelik ni.

shoot.the trip to penang this 6th macam mane? i wish i can make it.

if not, i am sorry. we have to take buses and trains anywhere we wanna go. ;(

i must have done something wrong. and this is one sign from Allah.Subhanallah.

28th April ; Taiping

2011-04-28T10:34:00.000-07:00

the tiring day,not enough sleep (damn barca!)

babysitting the 3 years old kid always want dukung one.

home:

nak rumah macam ni!

opah's:

taiping town:

lunch:

opahyang's:

opah's:

home:

locked from the outside

raining cats and dogs cows ducks kerbau semua lah. evening always raining one lah Taiping.

pecah rumah ikut belakang :)

thats basically my day. :)

p/s. sometimes it can be so much happier when you make people around you happy. :)

p/ss. i hope when i am old and can't barely walk properly there will be my grandchildren who will be there when i need em the most.

ENFP n ENTP

2011-04-27T23:51:00.000-07:00

Extraverted iNtuitive Feeling Perceiving
by Marina Margaret Heiss

Profile: ENFP
Revision: 4.0
Date of Revision: 28 Feb 2011

[The following comes partially from the archetype, but mostly from my own dealings with ENFPs.]

ENFPs are both "idea"-people and "people"-people, who see everyone and everything as part of a cosmic whole. They want to both help and to be liked and admired by other people, on both an individual and a humanitarian level. This is rarely a problem for the ENFP, as they are outgoing and warm, and genuinely like people. Some ENFPs have a great deal of zany charm, which can ingratiate them to more stodgy types in spite of their unconventionality.

ENFPs often have strong, if sometimes surprising, values and viewpoints. They tend to try to use their social skills and contacts to persuade others gently (though enthusiastically) of the rightness of these views; this sometimes results in the ENFP neglecting their nearest and dearest while caught up their efforts to change the world.

ENFPs can be the warmest, kindest, and most sympathetic of mates; affectionate, demonstrative, and spontaneous. Many in relationships with an ENFP literally say, "They light up my life." But there is usually a trade-off: the partner must be willing to deal with the practical and financial aspects of the relationship, and the ENFP must be allowed the freedom to follow their latest path, whatever that entails.

For some ENFPs, relationships can be seriously tested by their short attention spans and emotional needs. They are easily intrigued and distracted by new friends and acquaintances, forgetting their older and more familiar emotional ties for long stretches at a time. And the less mature ENFP may need to feel they’re the constant center of attention, to confirm their image of themselves as a wonderful and fascinating person.

In the workplace, ENFPs are pleasant and friendly, and interact in a positive and creative manner with both their co-workers and the public. ENFPs are also a major asset in brainstorming sessions; follow-through on projects can be a problem, however. ENFPs do get distracted, especially if another interesting issue comes along. They also tend towards procrastination, and dislike performing small, uninteresting tasks. ENFPs are most productive when working in a group with a few Js to handle the details and the deadlines.

Extraverted iNtuitive Feeling Perceiving

by Joe Butt

ENFPs are friendly folks. Most are really enjoyable people. Some of the most soft-hearted people are ENFPs.

ENFPs have what some call a "silly switch." They can be intellectual, serious, all business for a while, but whenever they get the chance, they flip that switch and become CAPTAIN WILDCHILD, the scourge of the swimming pool, ticklers par excellence. Som etimes they may even appear intoxicated when the "switch" is flipped.

One study has shown that ENFPs are significantly overrepresented in psychodrama. Most have a natural propensity for role-playing and acting.

ENFPs like to tell funny stories, especially about their friends. This penchant may be why many are attracted to journalism. I kid one of my ENFP friends that if I want the sixth fleet to know something, I'll just tell him.

ENFPs are global learners. Close enough is satisfactory to the ENFP, which may unnerve more precise thinking types, especially with such things as piano practice ("three quarter notes or four ... what's the difference?") Amazingly, some ENFPs are adept at exacting disciplines such as mathematics.

Friends are what life is about to ENFPs, moreso even than the other NFs. They hold up their end of the relationship, sometimes being victimized by less caring individuals. ENFPs are energized by being around people. Some have real difficulty being alone , especially on a regular basis.

One ENFP colleague, a social worker, had such tremendous interpersonal skills that she put her interviewers at ease during her own job interview. She had the ability to make strangers feel like old friends.

ENFPs sometimes can be blindsided by their secondary Feeling function. Hasty decisions based on deeply felt values may boil over with unpredictable results. More than one ENFP has abruptly quit a job in such a moment.

Functional Analysis:

Extraverted iNtuition

The physical world, both geos and kosmos, is the ENFP's primary source of information. Rather than sensing things as they are, dominant intuition is sensitive to things as they might be. These extraverted intuitives are most adept with patterns and connections. Their natural inclination is toward relationships, especially among people or living things.

Intuition leans heavily on feeling for meaning and focus. Its best patterns reflect the interesting points of people, giving rise to caricatures of manner, speech and expression.

Introverted Feeling

Auxiliary feeling is nonverbally implied more often than it is openly expressed. When expressed, this logic has an aura of romance and purity that may seem out of place in this flawed, imperfect world. In its own defense, feeling judgement frequently and fleetly gives way to humor. ENFPs who publicize their feelings too often may put off some of the crowd of friends they naturally attract.

Extraverted Thinking

Thinking, the process which runs to impersonal conclusions, holds the extraverted tertiary position. Used on an occasional basis, ENFPs may benefit greatly from this ability. Less mature and lacking the polish of higher order functions, Thinking is not well suited to be used as a prominent function. As with other FP types, the ENFP unwary of Thinking's limitations may find themselves most positively mistaken.

Introverted Sensing

Sensing, the least discernible ENFP function, resides in the inner world where reality is reduced to symbols and icons--ideas representing essences of external realities. Under the influence of the ever-present intuition, the ENFP's sensory perceptions are in danger of being replaced by hypothetical data consistent with pattern and paradigm. When it is protected and nourished, introverted sensing provides information about the fixed. From such firm anchoring ENFPs are best equipped to launch into thousands of plausibilities and curiosities yet to be imagined.Perhaps the combination of introverted Feeling and childlike introverted Sensing is responsible for the silent pull of ENFPs to the wishes of parents, authority figures and friends. Or perhaps it's the predominance of indecisive intuition in combination with the ambiguity of secondary Fi and tertiary Te that induces these kind souls to capitulate even life-affecting decisions. Whatever the dynamic, ENFPs are strongly influenced by the opinions of their friends.

Extraverted iNtuitive Thinking Perceiving
by Marina Margaret Heiss

Profile: ENTP
Revision: 3.1
Date of Revision: 28 Feb 2011

"Clever" is the word that perhaps describes ENTPs best. The professor who juggles half a dozen ideas for research papers and grant proposals in his mind while giving a highly entertaining lecture on an abstruse subject is a classic example of the type. So is the stand-up comedian whose lampoons are both funny and incisively accurate.

ENTPs are usually verbally as well as cerebrally quick, and generally love to argue--both for its own sake, and to show off their debating skills. ENTPs tend to have a perverse sense of humor as well, and enjoy playing devil's advocate. This sometimes confuses, even angers, those who don't understand or accept the concept of argument as a sport.

ENTPs are as innovative and ingenious at problem-solving as they are at verbal gymnastics; on occasion, however, they manage to outsmart themselves. ENTPs can be prone to "sharp practice" – especially cutting corners without regard to the rules if it's expedient – or, their juggling acts may simply be so over-ambitious they collapse.

Both at work and at home, ENTPs are very fond of "toys" -- physical or intellectual, the more sophisticated the better. Once these have been "solved" or become too familiar, however, they’ll be replaced with new ones.

ENTPs are basically optimists, but in spite of this (perhaps because of it?), they can become petulant about small setbacks and inconveniences. (Major setbacks they regard as challenges, and tackle with determination.) ENTPs have little patience with those they consider wrongheaded or unintelligent, and show little restraint in demonstrating this. In general, however, they are genial, even charming, when not being harassed by life.

In terms of their relationships with others, ENTPs are capable of bonding very closely and suddenly with their loved ones. Some appear deceptively offhand with their nearest and dearest; others are so demonstrative that they succeed in shocking co-workers who've only seen their professional side. ENTPs are also quick to spot a kindred spirit, and good at acquiring friends of similar temperament and interests.

ENTPs may sometimes give the impression of being largely oblivious to the rest of humanity except as an audience: good, bad, or potential. In general this is unfair – but it can be difficult to get an ENTP’s attention when they’re not immediately aware of you, especially for an Introvert.

The best approach in communicating with an ENTP is to be straightforward. No games – they’ll win. No "pulling rank" – they’ll just want to put you in your place. No apologies – you’ll undermine yourself. Try "I need/want to talk to you."

A Functional Analysis -- by Joe Butt

Extraverted iNtuition

ENTPs are nothing if not unique. Brave new associations flow freely from the unconscious into the world of the living. Making, discovering and developing connections between and among two or more of anything is virtually automatic. The product of intuition is merely an icon of process; ENTPs are in the business of change, improvement, experimentation.

The attraction Extraverted iNtuition has toward the real and physical amounts to a cosmic non sequitur: theory is drawn to practice. Such encounters are clearly puzzling. Both parties--the intuitor and the realist--are aware of a xenic quality in their meeting, with reactions ranging from recoil to reverie.

Introverted Thinking

Thinking is iNtuition's ready assistant, an embodiment of the sort of logic found in laws, boards and circuits. Thinking's job is to lend focus and direction to iNtuition's critical mass. The temporary habitations of changeling iNtuition are constructed of Boolean materials from Thinking's storehouse. Ultimately, Thinking is no match for iNtuition's prodigiousness. Systems lie in various states of disarray, fragmentary traces of Thinking's feverish attempts to shadow and undergird the leaps of the dominant function. One can only suppose that Thinking must continue to work during REM sleep pulling together iNtuition's brainchildren into integral wholes.

Extraverted Feeling

To the extent that Feeling is developed, ENTPs extravert Feeling judgment. As a result, it is not uncommon to find affability and bonhomie in members of this species. Tertiary functions are potentially utilitarian. Their limitations appear in their relative underdevelopment, diminished endurance, and vulnerability. ENTPs may harness Feeling's good will in areas such as sales, service, drama, humor and art. ENTP loyalty often runs high and can be hooked by those the ENTP counts as friends.

Introverted Sensing

Like a tail on the kite of iNtuition, Introverted Sensing counterweighs these beings drawn to nonconformity and anarchy. These shadowy sensory forms, so familiar to SJ types, serve as lodestones which many ENTPs employ Herculean measures to escape. "Question authority! (then do exactly what it tells you)" sums up the dilemma in which ENTPs may find themselves by attempting to best the tarbaby Sensing. Occasionally acknowledging awareness of norms and abnormality could, in theory, be potentially freeing.

Additionally, I've noticed that ENTPs have the need to have areas of expertise/excellence/uniqueness in which one is second to none. I've never beaten an ENTP at his/her own game--not in the final analysis. (e.g., just tonight, my neighbor who is recuperating from an illness received a call from an ENTP friend offering his special recipe for tea. The instructions required only the finest ingredients, a particular brand of orange juice, tea made with a ball--none of those horrid teabags--..., which will of course make the best tea of which he himself drinks 50 gallons each winter!)

p/s- im confused, which one is me ENTP or ENFP.

a little censored needed

2011-04-24T07:32:00.000-07:00

this story starts with a journey to Giant around 2130. went to Coke shelf and there came 2 girls,

"Weh, ada orang terpegang t*t*k aku tadi,die ckp Ya Allah!.." gadis A

"Weh, hang dengaq tak ni? gadis A

"............................" gadis B

"Betui, dia terpegang pastu dia cakap Ya Allah" gadis A

"Diam lah!" gadis B

"Awat hang ni?"

then i watch her and smile macam macho hell lah.haha.i wouldn't say creepy sebab she is the one being creepy cakap pasal boobs dekat Giant. come on. kalau dekat lingerie dept ke takpe.ahaha.

and this one last sentence i heard from her

"laaaaa...melayu ka? aku ingat Cina tadi" gadis A

LMAO! what is that? kalau Cina boleh lah eh boobs here and there? haha. well, lucky for me ade sikit lah rupa cina tu kan.

this is pretty lame post i know. boobs? what the heck.

its one heck of what makes the world go round n round maybe. HAHA

From Taiping with Love.

2011-04-20T20:46:00.000-07:00

From Taiping with Love.

it keeps coming back.

2011-04-20T09:55:00.000-07:00

tercipta untukku - i was on the bus on the way to SSP. then she came and sit beside me lending me her earphone and kept me mesmerized by this song. gah. precious.

the night before final paper.

2011-04-20T09:05:00.000-07:00

dadih honeydew tokey sawak amat membantu.

mungkin kembali study.

p/s. you can see you can tell that i can't focus on my study!

wait.

whatever shit happens, stay POSITIVE.

n o b o d y

2011-04-20T05:45:00.000-07:00

i should have deactivated my fb weeks ago. now it seems like it is too late. ruin my mood for the last paper. it takes me 2 days to get into study mode and then comes the storm, swipe away all heartlessly.

it is really hard. can for a moment we live with no obligation at all? i kind of need some time to swallow what you've said. you've stab through my hard shell , it is internal bleeding i can tell.

just now, it comes again. right before the final paper. for god sake please, my study hasn't been convincing this sem. the last 2 papers i studied on the very last minute. the paper was on 1430 and i started at 2300 the night before. i couldn't get to find the mood to study. you are making it harder. you think you is complicated, well everyone can be complicated too.

i don't like this.

opah,asyraf nak balik cepat-cepat.

cuteboyswithcat

2011-04-19T11:15:00.000-07:00

my picture keluar dekat sini .......

nothing much, yeah. yeah.

OhMGeeee! my picture keluar dekat cuteboyswithcats tu and its actually being noted/liked by 82 people. OhMGeee~!

i saw a lot of comments there that they have submitted their pictures but unfortunately nothing happens.so i didn't put much hope but now its for real mama! well. it is really a good picture kan. thank you Putih.i suddenly love you more.

oh not to forget.my tumblr.

guitar noob.yes i admit that.

2011-04-15T11:28:00.000-07:00

it is very very hard to play complicated chord! yeah it is lame, it is only Bm chord.

i am very frustrated! i am singing When Your Gone by Avril Lavigne. it all went well until the "We were made for each other" part. it a Bm. and how tefak i'm going to spread my fingers without damping other strings. duh. spoil my mood la dey.

yeah.i know i am a beginner. i just started playing guitar and it goes well. i guess i just have to give it a go everyday. just like when the first time i started playing. nak stretch jari buat Cmajor chord pn tak boleh. now, piece of cake baby.

head up,don't give up!

dang

2011-04-13T22:28:00.000-07:00

i find peace when i'm confuse.

i find hope when i'm left out.

Shakila

2011-04-10T12:30:00.000-07:00

the ex-girl asked me to remove her pictures posted in this blog for some reasons.

done.the pictures, not the message.

it's funny how immature i can be at times. *scrolling* yesteryear posts. HAHA

pure beauty

2011-04-09T10:16:00.000-07:00

studying Mandarin while listening to bunch of people speaking French.that's pathetic. its so unfortunate that there is no French class in UMK. i would choose French and would love to start all over again. :(

oh yeah. the movie Paris Je T'aime. it is a combination of numbers of love scene that's happening in Paris, The City of Love. above, the my fave scene. it is so wonderful for me. Subhanallah. things can be so subjective in this world.

from this movie too i grasp the meaning of love to be undefined.haha.what is that? i don't know. what is love? i don't know. it comes in many ways and sometimes you are just confused and live happily with the undefined but some cannot.they really need to define it and makes the definition comes to work. let's say, i love you because i care for you and one day i end up don't really care for you anymore, for the second type of the person, it is going to a definite end. you don't care means you don't love. well for the first type of person, u don't care but doesn't love is greater in depth compared to care? it's okay for you not to care for me but please don't stop loving me something like that stuff.

er. ape acap bebel ni? i don't really get what i was thinking n stuff but it is basically like that. yeah and yeah. that's all.

thats why

2011-04-09T08:34:00.000-07:00

i might have been wrong

2011-04-06T07:04:00.001-07:00

Words (the literal meaning) account for 7% of the overall message

Tone of voice accounts for 38% of the overall message

Body Language accounts for 55% of the overall message

surprising for those who read this for the first time and pretty same old for those who already knew this fact.

its not that hard to know if something is not right kan? "takde ape-ape lah" "i'm fine" but when you loook at the person. you know something is wrong. how do you know? it came from the body language. sometimes u just don't realize that one of your tiny muscle in your face stretched like very very small movement but for the one who stands in front of us can definitely sense something so yeah, here goes the " are you okay?" kind of question. you know there is something wrong but you need more. you still need the verbal confirmation which is only 45% or 7%(if we know how to fake my tone but most of us failed splendidly). For a ordinary person like all of my blog's readers. there is no need of you to fake your body language and so on, it what makes you connected to other people. the only exception is when you are thinking of being a spy or world-class criminal, you might need some faking up.

seriously? what is this shit? i have no idea. but it seems interesting. hmm. wondering what affected my decision to choose this image from Google. come read my mind.

p/s.human is interesting. we act like we are all big but deep inside we know we are not much stronger than a bird.

Syazni Taroni

2011-04-05T12:44:00.000-07:00

every time this song comes to mind.it always take me back to my matric life.this song was recommended by one of my good friend back there.EPIC.

this song got the normal version n slower version;acoustic one i think.whenever i listen to the slower one.i'll always end up in tears.firstly,yes if you see the movie you'll know why.secondly, all the precious memories from KMPP. what a wonderful life.tears,laughter,anger,joy. when it all added up there comes memories that i can't let go.

well,there's a saying good times won't stay for long.so now i'm in UMK. the downside i think; i have to make it through, for the good times to come and meet again.

Edora Yaacob

2011-03-31T10:05:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday!!~

April 1st

i remember.

hebat kan?

i wish you are doing great all the time.forget me not.

sparkling i am not

2011-03-28T15:07:00.001-07:00

night, please put me to sleep.

when I am all by myself,

loneliness sets in.

when everyone in slumber,

happiness is put to halt.

when you are far,

emptiness i feel.

its dark and its bright again.

for i wish in the darkness i spark.

but no,

not without you.

asyrafhanafi

desktop

2011-03-28T11:40:00.000-07:00

Wickweaky

2011-03-26T21:15:00.000-07:00

well. this is my band. ditubuhkan zaman budak-budak gila gig,indie stuff. we don't wanna be left behind so we established one called Wickweaky. its not that we do it just because we are caught in the hype.

we are superbly talented. it just that we are far from each other. sem break or holidays only help us with only 4 songs. well the production of a song takes quite some time and fortune.and i'm sure this coming holiday mesti the bandmates ask me to listen to the new songs and get ready to get recorded dekat Rainhouse Taiping.(tuan die guitarist Melastik Bintang)

p/s.nak main lagu jazz pulakkk.my soul.

ngee

2011-03-25T15:06:00.000-07:00

i miss you.

see how many times i uploaded the picture?

doubled you know doubled.

i kinda miss your awesogedikness tu. boo.how many days left?ngee

bulu ketiak

2011-03-22T11:20:00.000-07:00

Gaspard Ulliel

Chase Crawford

one of my friends post something about guys nowadays always rambut bieber or pacak2 whatsoever. tapi die nak yang complicated,gaya mewah n rambut beralun mcm model antarabangsa.

statement seorang ustaz.haha.let him be.

for me. tu atas tu berkarton aku upload. nak rambut macam tu. side swept kiri ke kanan ke. settled. hair is everything.i can be moody kalau keluar bilik tak puas hati rambut macam bangang. well that doesn't mean i duduk depan cermin tu berjam2.just i want a messy look macam atas tu. tapi presentable. formal ke tak formal ke boleh masuk. tapi susah nak dapat. selalu yang potong rambut tu tak tau ape yang aku nak. then dah terpotong takkan nak sambung balik kan.so i'd gone mad the whole week lah tunggu rambut panjang balik.

tapi Gaspard Ulliel tu memang hot lah.Chase Crawford pun. memang totally drool-worthy. ngee. tak gay okay tak.

a rejected rejected project

2011-03-20T12:52:00.000-07:00

i am tired. please 5 pages left.

short snort

2011-03-19T16:37:00.000-07:00

now i don't believe in talent. all of you have your own talent. some are really obvious. lahir-lahir je terus pandai menyanyi. Michael Buble lah tu. lahir-lahir je dah pandai tanduk bola. Ronaldo lah tu.

but if we are ordinary people macam mane? because right now, i feel talent can be yielded by effort. it is inside of you all the time, you don't know. but you just have to give a little bit more of

an effort for that talent to be discovered.

believe in yourself

my bestfriend

2011-03-15T10:03:00.000-07:00

my favourite candy now becoming my greatest friend ever.ngee.

kena marah sampai menangis-nangis

2011-03-14T21:58:00.000-07:00

i forced myself up after an hour of slumber to attend this one class which also a presentation day and it didn't go so well or anywhere near well. haha

i got scolded,i mean we.my groupmate because of the project kind of not up to the standard. yeah i knew it long before. it was my bad because we didn't work in group.the first project was basically our ideas but has been rejected because not colorful enough. and plus i was being rude just now. the "blah blah blah" though i only say it cause it got bored reading Bryant's kids book which the case of i'm reading it for the first time.he said he has passed up and all so i was like Okay. job completed. at the same time the Mdm was kind of criticizing us and she paused and this is the moment when my "blah blah blah" really comes to great effect. haha. she stood and chewing up our asses.

but

all i do is smile. weird. i don't know. i don't feel like arguing or what. it always like this when i don't get enough sleep. i tend to be way more hyper than normal. i am like super duper uber weird. after the class she called me and told me to not to repeat those "blah blah blah" and i was still smiling like nothing happen and just yes miss sorry miss. and then she told us what we have to do and stuff but this time it seems like nothing ever happened between us before. nice one. i think that must be one of the power of SMILE, "I AM WRONG" and "I AM SORRY". i learnt by reading this one book from the library 12 powerful words or something lah.the first sentence is I AM WRONG then comes I AM SORRY. both of these sentences need to be together.

in contrary

i was very very happy. i'd take the harsh rebuke but still im happy. there is a reason for this. it is probably the push that i need after all this while. you know like life is boring,stagnant and i can't live with that. i can live when everything is fine. once in a while i will try to pick a fight with someone over something just to make me feel like i am living.Thats what my ex had gone through.sometimes i just started a fight out of nowhere just to get a small action going. weird but it is true.

and right now, i am so energetic. forget the sleepless night. i am brainstorming right now. brilliant brilliant ideas come into my mind. i already have the push i needed all this while.i wonder why i didn't got the chance to present the first original project. nvm. moving on moving on.

te qiuero GUMMY BEAR!

au revoir!

spread it people

2011-03-13T21:02:00.000-07:00

i believe, the world is not getting better even after this one very wonderful speech. and ask yourself people. whats your future gonna be? this speech was from 1992 and now its been 20 years still there is so little changes that we can see about the sufferings that is happening in this world.

im a student wandering around this topics.starting from last semester i am thinking why only lately they have been introducing this sustainable courses in Malaysia? or even in other parts of the world there is not much different.

it sucks when you know that you live in a "Dunia Akhir Zaman" and there is nothing you can do about it. you can't change capitalism.you can't change how you want to live your life.its all have been set up.

i believe there is millions of ideas to save the world but it is not easy to apply as we are frequently controlled by our desires. i am not blaming any person. we are all the same.

i wonder how this world would look if we applied the Islamic System. i am sure it will be different. i am sure our future will be clearer.

for those who still so happy living in ignorance, i wish you, have fun while you can.

au revoir.

Legendary Me

2011-03-10T23:37:00.000-08:00

in a terrible mood swing right now.

i miss everything right now. just finished listening to orchestra songs and i started walking down the memory lane.

how i miss being with the BAND in the band room. such a family feeling it was.that was the video from 2007 preliminary round.we've made it to the final and got into the television.i can't remember but i think it is the education channel from Astro or something and sometimes my opah called and said i was on TV playing drums. relax opah. there's more to come.

this BAND taught me the meaning pride.i wish i could turn back the time and become the President once again.

p/s. sorry Cikgu Zul, i always remember your words "Kecil mane pun kite,hati kite kene besar."..but now it is hard. no matter in what stuff i joined,sports,music.the atmosphere is the same,we are small university hence we are destined to lose. i can't do it alone. please. get me back to where i belong.

A song for you

2011-03-09T12:06:00.000-08:00

oh yeah, that's one good point.

I AM NO SUPERMAN.

do not expect toooo much or else you are the one who are going to wear that sick suit.

gardening for what it looks like

2011-03-09T10:16:00.000-08:00

what are these?

what are those?

you tell me. ngee.

himemaru-chan!

kicking

2011-03-09T08:59:00.000-08:00

hi, how are you? i hope you are all good and blissful. well if you ask me how am i? i should say comme ci comme ca (so-so in french) . i miss learning french back in school. yeahh. the big atlas book standing right in front my face with my chin resting on the table, sleeping. so nice right, and 7 years later this is me ruing to turn back the time.

well, some say anything happens for a reason , and yeah i should agree . lets say if i was a very good french hunk back then i think i've got to fly to France 2 years ago. but "luckily" i didn't which makes me stuck in Malaysia or to be exact Penang and Kelantan. the best part was knowing some important people which i describe it as destiny. You don't find wonderful friends everyday right? plus it is me. i ain't easy to handle i tell you. rawr. haha.

well. forget the good part let's start criticizing my current institute of education m experiencing right now.

it sucks. if i should rate it , it is 15 in the scale of 10.

the main problem is water. its been forever and the 2nd last time i heard it should be done within this date and this date but nothing happened.then last time i heard it coming from the YDP which got it straight from VC, that its gonna be fixed in April. i hope!

the final is getting nearer.i can't stand going up and down 589137598172 number of stairs just to wash my hands. and sometimes i have to travel an extra miles because the bathroom is too congested.

sorry if you hate me ranting here but it just my way of expressing things i don't like.i won't complaint to the staff or something. i know they had this coming since forever. the YDP also got nothing else to said because its not like he can do anything. everything has been issued and we just can hope for the best.

secondly,it is because of the overwhelming activities of mosquitoes during my bedtime. i couldn't really figured out the main sources because i feel that it comes from every longkang in this area but the closest one that i could think of is the pool beside my hostel block. it is where the sewer water is discharged and slowly channel to the main "longkang". this mosquitoes really really got

under my skin. steal my slumber, steal my focus, steal my swagger!it got worst last 2 weeks. i really can't sleep well at night. i can get rid of the mosquitoes covering up my whole body in a blanket but then i will be sweating as if i was running while im sleeping.

there is like no entertainment here, thats fine for me but basic amenities? that pissed me off man. it just sucks man. i keep telling you here is boring, boring ,boring which in my view i kind of oversold this university, it sucks actually.

there is no talking like "Orang susah boleh je hidup takde air and all" and stuff like this. thats bullshit. most of the people here have a very wet childhood, i mean in term of availability of water. how could we are not complaining about this stuff.

demonstration seems interesting if nothing is ever improved but i don't wanna be the one who started it. i've got dark history. it just not worth it.

for whatever it is I'm still living and forever strong! i complain just to let it out, i don't keep hatred or anything inside. thats gonna kill me.

gosh.u talked a lot.

2011-03-06T19:14:00.000-08:00

this is the post where u got to know someone that talks as if she is somewhere near goddess. HAHA

an idea of making my class interesting, what the heck. it is interesting enough but the souls inside there aren't that interesting.

that is why i tried my best to get the hell out of there. i got involved in other things which makes me feel like i'm connecting. the things going with the class is like you are using the university's wifi, every single time u need to put in the password and stuff and once inside its dying and broken fragments everywhere.

i can't be my oneself there. don't doubt my potential, don't make me think like you are a what others are saying which is "Bimbo" & "Dumb Blonde" which somehow i can't argue their points , oh you don't have to be blonde to take it to your heart, you knew it right?

i am commited to so many things but my class, is that why the condemnation was put upon me?

nice ass. tell me what have you done? i see, hurmm, i see, hurmm, yeah that and that, hurmm, assignments? HOMG! im such an asshole,isn't it?

i need to let it out because this is me and usually i spill it out on other people but there are 0 good listeners here, yeahh blogging will do.

enough ranting. don't take it too serious just do what you think is good for yourself.

error

2011-03-06T09:28:00.001-08:00

i am all tensed up right now for some reasons

i am definitely not happy with the way Man Utd played just now, the decision for the foul on Nani (that was sick, directly to his leg/knee), the LOST for sure. you know how arrogant Liverpool's fan can be even though they are no where near the top table. sucks. it sucks so bad i can't barely kentut senyap-senyap.
i am definitely not comfortable with this one friend. she is not a good listener, you have to know that and the only time she listened very well she condemns me because i am being disloyal or blah3 . it is seriously normal to you know like "weh,kedai tu awek die cun kaw-kaw.nanti makan sane eh" despite the fact that i have a girlfriend. it just merely a thing we guys talk about when we are making conversation, yeah like making our moment interesting. we set up someone with someone, make setupid bet, lepak and tease all the beauties passing by. its normal. we do it to kill time. we don't study.hell no.
i am definitely in a veryyyyyyyy completely madly annoyed state when i share something and im sooo excited telling it and they take it like "OH (sambung buat keje)","OKAY~". i hate that.totally. oh. or maybe i should say that i want to share instead of tell. maybe im being stupid and you are being a very nice friend. fuck i tell you nothing more.we will do setupid things like when im hangout with guys.

i won't look in any displeasing eyes. if i don't look at you in your eyes , ps. something is not right.

life is boring and you are not helping.

free p**n

2011-03-04T03:45:00.000-08:00

ada lelaki menjerit tengok saya tukar seluar di ampaian petang tadi. sumpah saya tak berbogel tapi dia mengada menjerit melalak. tolong lah saya tak lah hot mana pun kan? (awak tak angguk,saya tahu)

busy

2011-03-01T06:00:00.000-08:00

busy.nothing to bebel.so no post.(this one, EXCEPTIONAL)

you

2011-02-23T03:48:00.000-08:00

click

Alhamdulillah, she didnt get there earlier. i am so at ease hearing you are all fine. this is why i didn't feel good that morning. gosh. it might have been you. i just can't imagine that.

her flight was suspended and minutes later she got this news. thank you for all the updates.

take care himemaru.

a wait can be so long

2011-02-21T09:53:00.000-08:00

leaving on a jetplane

2011-02-21T08:39:00.000-08:00

it is hard. i can't tell this to just anyone. it doesn't give me the same effect if it is you.

but i can't keep it inside. i just want you.

come back and stay please.

i need that awesome stare

No Strings Attached

2011-02-20T22:56:00.000-08:00

i've watched this movie last week. same old same old from a chick flick movie i guess.i have no comment on this movie actually. it goes from sex buddies/friends for benefit to love at the end of this movie. it is funny. an gooey romantic for me. i don't know. i can't really explain it. go see it for yourself.

so many yet so little

2011-02-19T22:33:00.000-08:00

i have soooo many newly downloaded movies. coming from various parts of the world. not the kind that goes out on television but it is no porn i tell you.

i am excited but yeah. time is always an issue for me. despite knowing i got so much in hands but i still couldn't stop procrastinating. have fun till late at night. ahh. what a life. i don't like my current life; all that much but somehow it is my life and slight changes are necessary from time to time. i think it is enough fun and get back to work.

one of my current project is this shit. this is lame i know. i can't really recall how it was back when i was 6-12 years old.all i know is i really love running, recess time, candies, games, comics and animals. when i got home i have these 2 favourite monkeys for observation. all i can say is they don't like to read books full with words. they love animation. i prefer animation too but the thing is the sources can be hard to find and time consuming. shoot.i should have started this earlier. nevermind. im at my best under pressure. so keep it coming asya. don't give up.

so anyone who has any idea on how to convince kids to save energy or anything about going green, do tell me asap! i have a very limited time as i'm going to UTM for rugby this 22nd and i don't know who is my group members so i'm doing it alone or should i say with...

her?

Nick and Norah's Infinite Playlist

2011-02-16T06:04:00.000-08:00

i finished watching this movie about 2 days ago. unintentional . caught in between class . from just a short sneak peak to a whole length of the movie.

yea. this movie is kind of exciting for someone at my age , someone who enjoy gigs and stuff at the same time have the overflowing feeling of love that needs to be showered on someone else. that might be it.

lets start with what i hate. its the only thing that i hate about this movie which is the CHEWING GUM chewed, originally by Caroline ( Norah's bff) then Norah and Nick got a hint of it i guess because he kissed Norah. whatever it is i just can't tell. its terribly gross. you have to see it yourself

the good part, in my view. the hero and the heroine is a guy/girl-next-door type. which is good for me. its like a must for movies nowadays where the hero and heroine is some kind of miraculously beautiful. it does give a bad effect on watchers you know. kesian all the average person, they have feelings too.

this movies also got lot of good musics and not really famous. the love is building up before the night they fall in love which is the entire movie. one movie one whole night.

the lovey dovey part is just nice i guess. not really got my attention as there is not enough conflict.its already like figured that they are going to be together in the end. cliche cliche. it just the night life that caught my eyes, oh! not forgetting the gays! 3 homos . now i know gays are funny. seriously guys, i am not interested. i prefer boobs. LoL.

Not forgetting the cute YUGO! (the car) . it is very nice if that person get a hold to old stuff or something with a great history. i really like it. if it is an old car double the awesomeness. shoot. rase macam nak satu. old car. mesti banyak problem and one thing lead to another. mesti banyak first hand experience nanti. best. gee.

and oh.the best scene with this quote " i love you so much its retarded" also happened in this yellow box. it might sounds like a retard but for me it is sooo sweet. please argue. hehe

they've gone through a lot in just a night.i never experienced that but i wish it happens to me. hehe

500 days of Summer

2011-02-15T04:13:00.000-08:00

this is a very good movie,for me at least. some of my friends who have watched it didn't give me a very good review on this movie. screw you .

one of the best i tell you. or maybe because i've experienced what Tom had so i can put it this way , i am the real story and the movie just reiterate the event. *perasan-ness*

this is not a typical romantic story.it is more to a real life.its happening out there.just wait until its your turn.haha. oh am i forgetting the scene where they were dating in IKEA. my favourite spot. plus a BENCH under a big tree . one of my favourite thing in this world.

.wonderful just wonderful.

"Everyone has had that person who they loved more than they were loved back. Who they idolised and worshipped and thought was ‘the one’. And then the bastard dumped them"

next will be Nick and Norah's Infinite Playlist

I love you so much its retarded. HAHA

lovey dovey

2011-02-13T08:29:00.000-08:00

i just received a stalk of rose and a stalk of unknown flower.

thank you Paa, friend forever and ever babe!

today is Valentine's. i don't actually celebrating this because of religious aspect , you know it right. if no go google. im going to celebrate this Val's with waking up early morning and go jogging. or in my own words it will sound like " gathering positive energy for this lacklustre soul".

apart from that , I am downloading these romantic movies , just , you know , feel the mood. developing that loving feeling towards this weekend. hihihihihi

Love Actually

500 Days of Summer (can't wait)

Nick and Norah's Infinite Playlist

bangun pagi pagi goyang punggung kawan-kawan!

different

2011-02-12T03:39:00.000-08:00

there is something wrong with myself. i feel different.i feel gloomy.i feel weakened.

it just weird. maybe it is the post-effect of the recent common cold i've suffered. i don't know.it just different.

less of all that will promise me a better future. gambatte acap-san!

The Taiping Educators

2011-02-06T22:14:00.000-08:00

introducing my junior,Amanina Alwani(vocal) and my music teacher,Zulkiflee Rasdi(sax) from The TAIPING Educators. rindu sangat.daymn. my wedding nanti definitely kene ade mereka2 ni.

banyak bende best TAIPING ni kan? hihi

entahh

2011-02-06T03:55:00.000-08:00

i ll sing you to sleep some other time eh?

hold me tight

2011-02-02T13:23:00.000-08:00

i dedicate this song to you.

this is how i feel right now.its weird how i can feel this way. its been a very very long time since the last time i felt it.

i am happy when i'm with you.

ps.lagu tak ramai orang tau.

ankle

2011-02-02T10:38:00.000-08:00

i just got back from a futsal match. i suffered from an ankle sprain last month and up until now it is still a heck of a burden for me. Just now,i got kick exactly at the "g-spot". terangkat-angkat jalan lepas tu but seminit dua sambung balik. gila.

it hurts like sh^%*(t.

i just can't stop playing. so friends , just pray and hopefully i'll get well soon. :)

p.s. i said that 3 words. shit! terkeluar. bodoh punye acap. i am sorry. ;(

pengapit

2011-01-31T21:03:00.000-08:00

because of my stache a la bearde a 24 years old dude call me abang all the from Medan Kit to Menglembu and down to Buntong.

i won't say i am happy or angry or sad for that. neutral. perfectly neutral. just kesian dekat dude tu panggil me abang all the way. and even he knew the shocking truth pun still call me abang. thanks to him i got to find a way to the service center. totemo arigatou-gozaimasu!

the recent activity was Me jadi pengapit my senior.

it was fun and leceh lah to put it in a way. fun and happy as you know, makan best.yummy yummy. yang leceh was i wore a baju melayu with samping and all and i have to keep so many things ,(handphones(groom's),tissue,carkey,camera) pegang payung lagi. i thought that day i must have been forgotten something or lost something. luckily it didn't happen. pulang ke taiping dengan senang hati dan seorang cina. haha

holidays

2011-01-26T10:33:00.000-08:00

its a week holiday but still i don't find it sufficient.

and also financially insufficient to really enjoy this short break.

what the fuck is masquerade night?what should i wear?where can i get that mask?and how much will it cost me anyway?just for one fucking night.

i'm only gonna buy things when i find it necessary. i buy new shoe when the old has already worn out.i mean like really worn out lah. for example.

ayah. nak baru eh? ^^

so to go shopping for a costume for that only night really got me into this act-against-my-principle.

but the organizer of the night is the very bestfriend of mine so I think I'll loosen my principle sikit lah but still don't expect me to wear something like Zorro or Spiderman. I'll try my best. kalau tak jumpe you'll see me pakai singlet , seluar pendek , terompah dengan topeng ultraman. Semua ni ade dekat Taiping.jangan risau HAHA.

or maybe this

lastly,to my surprise, my house has gotten much more beautiful this time. ini semua jasa sendiri mengenalkan IKEA kepada ayah.

he's obsessed with stuff from IKEA.entah sebulan brape kali pegi sane entah.balik-balik je dah cantik macam ni.before this takde lah cantik macam ni.ni yang taknak balik kelantan ni. sigh.

regret

2011-01-25T09:51:00.000-08:00

i always want to try different things tau tak.

tapi kan this one thing i've been into recently.i never thought of doing this kind of thing before.the incredible sulk got me into this.

new experience.its okay for most part except for the most part.

adoi.now i regretted my decision.

macam mane ni..?nak masuk bilik incredible sulk bakar laptop die lah.

2011-01-24T16:03:00.000-08:00

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